Silence

I wish I never had to speak again. Take a vow of silence and let everybody fight amongst themselves. Apparently I am not so good with words sometimes myself. I am so prone to insulting people. I guess when I feel misunderstood I try to put that on them. I hate to mince words or say more than I have to. Why don't I have any patience. I started the day already getting yelled at by 3 women. All I could think of was my nasty over the top comeback. They had total control over me and I do not like that. Self control is behaving yourself even when others aren't. My false thought was that if they think they have the right to be an asshole to me then they should get it right back. Eye for an eye mentality. Nobody wants to feel taken advantage of or ran over, but there has to be a better way. People also take their baggage out on you and based on their thin slicing of a situation they react accordingly. It's not easy being human.

I used my exercise bike today for 10 minutes, it hurt my legs. I go to my dance lesson tonight. Let's hope this week picks up a little bit.

TTYS,

JJB

Monday Monday

So I attempted to attend a salsa class but due to bad parking and no credit cards taken, I will have to try again tomorrow. The good news is the class tomorrow is free.

I actually completed my first list of tasks for the year. Important/not fun shit that had to get done. I really wanted to exercise along with it.

I was also given some disturbing information that wiped my energy dry but I will not react to this invasion and just keep my focus on me.

TTYS,

JJB

Day 2

I got through the day and now it is bed time. I will start salsa lessons tomorrow, yay!

I will also be getting an exercise bike from Edgar this week.

I hope I can eat better this week. I am a little nervous. Self control really isn't my specialty.

TTYS,

JJB

Happy New Year 2011

O.K, I am still fat.

I tipped the scales at 255 today. 5 pounds less than last January 1st, but far from where I should be.

I did my New Years cleaning, which was surprisingly fast and painless. I always need to clear the clutter out of my room and my head.

I am not sure how I will attack this new 365, but I hope to have some nice victories under my belt. I really didn't accomplish anything in 2010.

Stay tuned for the updates.

TTYS,

JJB