2 miles of smiles

I have been logging my workouts for two days. I am not gym bound this evening because I am working the three day split this week. My upper body is very soar. I hit the gym last night and today I hit a track in Long Island for a 2 mile walk. The last half a mile I did shirtless. Not because my body is awesome, but because I like the way the breeze feels and I also need a base tan. I have stayed covered up for years and I feel a little more secure with myself. There were other dudes jogging with no shirt and I wanted to be one of those dudes.

Veggie Burgers are working! Less calories but satisfying. I'm sending out email's on career advice and I am confident I will have a plan by year's end.

Tonight I am going to dinner with my mother and my aunt. That's a part of my better son business. Tomorrow I am taking Michelle to Yonkers Casino. That is part of my better significant other business. Yesterday I took a few hours to pick up Michael from school and take him to the sprinkler park. Happy child means happy daddy.

Food wise my protein is finally coming up. My workouts are great. I look forward to unceasing in strength over time to get back to my 275 bench press.

Overall I am doing better these days.

TTYS,

JJB

Walking thoughts

I went for a walk today at Victory field. I walked around the track 8 times, which totals 2 miles.

Before I get into my deep thoughts, I want to declare today a great start. I woke up at 8:45 and left the house at 9:22. That is a record breaking pace for me, well the summer time me. During the school year I get much more done in that same amount of time. I had some water and then a scoop of protein mixed in to iced coffee. I will go to the gym later today and I have a great feeling that I will be going for another walk later.

I enjoyed being out and seeing people. There were families and couples and people playing soccer. So many different people with the common purpose of getting out and moving around. Something that you can't do in the winter, or should I say not willing to do. With all of the things that we believe divide us, there are such simple and pure things that we have in common, so they should unite us. I don't know if it's an American thing or this is a global problem, but in a search for a personal identity we often look for ways to justify how we are better than others or how bad the other side is for being different.

The need to evolve jumped into my head. Relationships and communication needs to evolve. I think that is what we were supposed to do as adults, but as I told my cousin Samantha, it doesn't get more sophisticated as you get older.

My personal evolution has to do with my ability to serve, but this might be the blueprint for everybody. I need to serve my family better. I can always improve as a father, significant other and a son. I am 30 years old and I still want to be a better son. I also need to serve myself better. Better food, better rest, better free time activities and better faith.

I was also thinking about change and how difficult that is. I usually keep my keys in my right pocket and my wallet in my left. I was leaving the park and reached for my keys and they weren't there. I panicked for a second. They were in my left pocket. Something so simple can rock your world, imagine any other obstacle.

I also have to evolve with my teenage obsession with women. Especially in the boobies and butts department. Maybe I'm just addicted to round objects but I don't stare at balloons like a tiger on it's prey. I saw a girl with a blonde ponytail jog past me. I love watching a ponytail in motion, it's hypnotic. The romantic in me is always hypnotized by women. They are intoxicating to say the least.

It's breakfast time and my egg substitute and veggie sausage is getting cold.

TTYS,

JJB

Just being fat

I have been doing horrible for about 6 weeks. The name of my blog is just don't be fat, and I have been practicing being a fat bastard for a while.

I have the summer off and haven't had a plan to be productive. I have been lonely, and waiting for company from my friends and family is a real losers bet. This is a blessing in disguise. I can be productive with no interruptions.

Today I actually ate well, or I should say better than usual. I bought Boca burgers and am fully equipped to eat well this week and I pumped iron today and logged my workout.

I did win my political position. I look forward to diving in that in September.

As I did my first repetition today I said to myself attempt 500. I have failed 499 (just a guess) times at getting fit but I haven't quit. Isolation is good for progress. Wish me luck.

TTYS,

JJB

Not so easy

I am still awake and will until midnight. Here is the rundown

1. work
2. library
3. cvs
4. gym
5. dinner
6. gathering signatures with Mr. A
7. cooked taco meat and rice and pudding pie
8. prepared my lunch, outfit and gym bag
9. 10 e-mails
10. massive clean up

Being productive is so tiring. Farewell to Italy, you will not have a spot in the sweet 16 of world cup soccer but you have a spot in my heart. Viva Italia.

I have a feeling things are going to be changing soon. I will make sure for the better. I'm ready to fight.

TTYS,

JJB

Wednesday June 23

Hola amigos,

As you know I do not go to the gym on Wednesday. It was still a huge day.

• work
• take mother to BJ's
• take mother to waldbaums
• Packed lunch, took out outfit and prepared gym bag for Thursday
• sent 10 business emails and 2 work emails
  
• knocked on doors and received 4 signatures for my petition
• went to BBQ in BK
• Passed my job to see if I dropped my lunch bag outside
• picked up cousin in Freeport
• went to Dave and Busters
• drop cousin off before coming home

I was busy 6:30 am until midnight. These are extraordinary times and I am pumped. I came to school and my lunch bag was sitting at my desk. Praise the lord.

Donnie came out with his pregnant wife. We had a blast, Shout out to the expecting couple. My Thursday will not be as eventful but I am ready to face my challenges. I lay down for no task. Watch me realize my dreams and find motivation in my tenacity. I will fall, but I will rise. I will rise. I will always rise. I am too strong, I am way to strong. I will rise.

TTYS,

JJB

Tuesday Back and triceps

Howdy Bitches,

Today started with a small air of tension but it quickly went away. I am spending a lot of alone time with my son next week and I made a plan for all four days. I am getting so much done with my check lists.

The gym was really good with plenty of cardio and weight lifting. My diet was on point today and will remain pretty clean. I had to work out in jeans because I didn't repack my shorts. That sucked.

Shout out to Mr. A for getting signatures with me in the rain and shout out to Michael for my bodybuilding CD, I can't wait to check it out.

I hope that after I send out 100 STE letters that I will get at least 5% sign up. That could be a cool $250 this summer.

Another shout out to L Simpson for that text. That was really nice and I really needed that.

Things are going very well and the summer is almost here. People are always saying to go with the flow or play it by ear. Fuck them. You need a plan, you need a goal or somebody else needs a plan or goal for you to follow. Good shit just doesn't happen. Let's make it happen people.

TTYS,

JJB

Monday Motion

Sup,

Today started productive. I went to retrieve my tickets for a 4th of July show in Valley Stream and got to work on time. I also found a bomb ass parking spot so I didn't have to pay $9 for parking.

I received my campaign literature today but I am a little nervous about door knocking. I didn't accomplish that tonight due to darkness. I will prepare my speech tomorrow. I need 17 more signatures. I am a veteran at this but this time I am selling myself.

I will be buying a lovely affordable massage lotion for Michelle and borrowing a book on massage from my local library. That is cheap and romantic. I wanted to buy a toy for my son for the weekend but absolutely have no idea. The boy already has too much.

It's only Monday but I know that next weekend we are going swimming Saturday when Michelle leaves work or seeing toy story 3 3d. Sunday we are going to Manhattan by train. We will either go to the statue of liberty and have a picnic or a sprinkler park. My vote is for statue.

I had a bomb ass workout today. Cardio, chest & bis, then some more cardio. Amen. I also sent out 11 more STE letters to schools and will be looking to have a workshop at my local public library.

No excuses, complaining or blaming or judging. Focusing on my 4 areas of family, bodybuilding, entrepreneurship, and politics.

Shout out to L Simpson for sending me that inspirational text. You're a great person no matter what M. Amoroso says. Oops, did I just type that.....OOOOOOOOOOOOPS!!!!!

TTYS,

JJB

Very Busy

Hi All,

so this has been a very busy and productive week. I am back at the gym and had not skipped my workouts. I have been making my meals and been really on task.

I have been so busy that I haven't been going to bed until midnight. I am glad that I have a 10 start time at work.

I have been to a civic meeting, UFT rally and a Uft meeting while stil having time to play games with Edgar at Dave and Buster's. Hopefully next wek more people will come join us.

All of my goals are within my reach and I can have whatever I like. I'm going in!

TTYS,

JJB

Day one

I am calling this blog day one because I had a pretty long break from the gym. I do not know what happened, but no excuses. I have also eaten horribly for some time now. Today was my first day back to the gym. Today I ate healthy.

I worked my chest and boy did it hurt. This is going to be a brutal week. I had a great weekend so it helped give me that boost to take care of business. I will be going back in to solitude mode. The more social I get, the less preparation I do for my life.

It was a lot of fun recently but I have some goals to attain. Work is winding down to the summer. I am looking forward to it.The hats I must wear and the work I must put in are in the areas of

• Daddy: I need to always have a plan to teach and entertain my son. I have to focus on him and only him when I am around him
• Bodybuilder: I have to follow the workout plan, eating plan and rest plan. I must be very active this summer
• Political: I am running for county committee and I have to develop my political voice and share it with my neighborhood
• Entrepreneur: I have to implement my STE program before any other program

I just want to focus on these areas and when I have free time I can use it to relax and vision my goals. Working on my personal behavior, habits and emotions will be hard work. I want to appreciate what I have and work hard for what I want and not look back.

TTYS,

JJB

Taking a 3 day rest

So depending on the scale this coming Monday, I will know if the blood type diet was just a nice start or a real deal. The only product I would add immediately would be the whey protein.

I had a good back workout today. I was really tired but muscled through it. I know my body wants that extra rest day. Rest ye shall have.

Get rich or die trying!

TTYS,

JJB

Early blog

So today there was a little less to accomplish. I had enough food tonight and will cook tomorrow.

My workout was pretty good and I will do some cardio next week.

Being so focused makes me feel empowered and not so lonely. Getting things accomplished keeps my mind going and I feel better when my check list is all checked up. Life is full of so many little things.

This summer I plan on making an album or two. Solo and one with Chris. I look forward to some day games to watch the Mets or Phillies or the Yankees. I might even go to Boston Stadium and Baltimore and Washington DC. That is a great plan. 5 stadiums in less than two months. Who's coming with me?

TTYS,

JJB

Crazy Legs

I switched shit up today and blasted my legs. I started with squats and was sweating by my third set (out of 4). It was an awesome day and my eating was on point. I am really getting shit done these days. My checklists are the bomb. I am very productive and am on my way to the top.

TTYS,

JJB

Chest Day

So I weighed in at 245.0 today. I have been using the blood type diet and have seen some interesting results. I can't wait until next Monday to see if any more weight is lost.

I had to pay $435 for my car today but it runs like new. I cooked my ass off tonight and now I have to clean up. My spirits are pretty good. I feel like I have a plan and thus control over some things. Summer here I come.

TTYS,

JJB

Blah Blah Blah

Go Mets, nice dramatic win tonight. Today was an annoying day at work and I am glad it is over. I am going to my show tomorrow. Hopefully I get good pictures.

Today was a great arms day. Next week will be better.

TTYS,

JJB

Mayhem

So a teacher quit today. One of my favorites too. It is a harsh profession. There is always too much gossip and bullshit in a day and a life. Why are we so easily distracted from our goals and desires. I had a nice workout and my meals were on point. I did my whole checklist again and look forward to the weekend. Friday night is all Michael and Saturday I will be at my first body building show. Sunday is all Michael day, I predict Adventureland or maybe just some parks and some swimming.

I feel a bit more focused right now. I hope the scale is happy this Sunday. lights out at 9:45. If I take any good photos on Saturday I will post them.

TTYS,

JJB

Break is over

I headed back to the gym after a small break. I had a great chest day and threw in some biceps. I have been eating cleaner for the last 3 days. I put on 2 pounds and I hope they melt off just as fast.

I took a positive step in making a to do list today and I nailed everything. When I am not organized I am depressed, when I am depressed I do nothing. So this is good. I need to roll in to the summer break down ten more pounds and ready to train hard and get my entrepreneur on.
Focus is the mission. Get it and keep it.

TTYS,

JJB

Pumping the chest!

Today was day one repeated. I was on the verge of puking and didn't. I wore my xl shirt to the gym and felt fit. I need more xl shirts and need to retire the xxl. I look so fit in a smaller shirt. I am buff. When this belly is gone, and the body hair is gone and the tan is set. Sweet chin music for you haters.

TTYS,

JJB

Squat it out

Today was legs day. I finished 3 days out of 6. Tomorrow is back to day one. Chest & Back with dead-lifts to finish me off. I hope I don't puke again.

I feel very bored and lonely. It seems like everyday is repeating itself. The gym is very satisfying but not too much else. I think I will take Michael to Adventure Land this weekend. His mom works until 5. I fucking hate the salon.

Somebody rescue me.

TTYS,

JJB

Everything hurts!

OK, so day 2 of the Arnold 3 day split. I am fried. The shoulders are used a lot on chest day, and to follow the next day with all these big shoulder movements is insane. The diet was clean today and I can not wait to go to sleep.

I will go back to Sunday weigh day and post any new developments on the road to pants size 40. Lets go Mets!

TTYS,

JJB

Arnold's routine

Today I started Arnold's 6 day split which has me hitting all body parts hard and twice in a week. I worked so hard today I puked. Shout out to Mike for the great spot, borrowing the body building bible and the awesome shirt (it fits! xl baby!).

My weight is still at 247.2 but I am very excited about the next 4 weeks of killing every muscle fiber for it to come back stronger.

No Pain, no gain. I look forward to seeing old friends Vinny S and Edgar this week and catching up. Time to regain my focus and recommit.

TTYS,

JJB

what a week

It has been a busy week for me. On Monday I spent time with Michelle. On Tuesday I went out for a belated birthday celebration with Martine and Flo, shout out to them for my awesome gifts. Last night I chilled with Chris and watched old school wrestling and then crashed on his couch. Good times.

I am revamping the diet to the following calorie intake.

• 2000 calories
• 180 grams of protein
• 42 grams of fat
• 250 grams of carbs

If I do not drop a steady 2lbs per week I will adjust carbs and increase protein by 10%. I might have hit a small plateau but I am ready to break it.

On the bright side, my muscles are looking great. I just have to get my head right. I need to regain my focus and recommit to my adventure in fitness.

TTYS,

JJB

Going to bed

So the 2010 focus is my body. I just watched the best celebrity body parts special and I know someday I will be just as hot as those guys!

Shout out to Flo for giving me half her sandwich and shout out to my peeps at Richie's Gym. Today's workout was dope, great pump and cardio. Tomorrow is all legs day. Most hardcore day of the week. Saturday I am taking Michael swimming while his mother works.

I bought some lovely size 42 shorts that come with a belt. I can't wait to be a size 40. God bless the gym.

TTYS,

JJB

The heart of a champion

I will start out with shout outs. Shout out to Dan & Dani and baby Samara. What a beautiful sweet child. Shout out to cousin Dani's hair, it is now black, the color not the race lol.

I did my HIIT workout today. I am so pumped! Jeremy is finally jogging. Great things are going to happen. You can have anything you want if you focus on it.

Make your dreams come true!

TTYS,

JJB

Obliterated

Ok, up at 4:30, did my morning cardio. Over 300 calories on the HIIT system.

Back workout and 15 minute HIIT

I am fading fast. This big body needs to rest. Goodnight.

Shout out to Mike for doing cardio with me. Mike you are the man! You know why! We all salute you!

TTYS,

JJB

Marvelous Monday

Ok, so there wasn't any morning cardio today. Getting extra sleep after the weekend is very necessary.

I Started HIIT today, which stands for high intensity interval training. It was the bomb. After a hearty chest pump I hit the cardio for 22 minutes. I walked for two minutes and then sprinted for one minute and repeated that. It was intense and I broke a nice sweat jogging. If you want to understand the bennefits then look it up plus EPOC. I jogged at 2,5,8,11,13 and 17 minutes. I want to do twice as much in the future. Ultimately I want to do a one to one ratio so a 40 minute cardio session offers 20 minutes of sprinting.

My cough is almost all gone and I am ready for back day tomorrow.

TTYS,

JJB

Almost all better

So I cracked today and went to CVS for medicine. I hope everything is good by Monday. I was going to do morning cardio tomorrow but I have no car and Mike the Nazi goes at 4:55.

I recommend visiting www.vicsnatural.com and get some tips on proper form.

Today I had a great back day. Less exercises but more sets per basic movement. I did a lat pull then seated row and then one arm rows. I did 4 sets each and capped it off with a seated upright row.

Morning cardio was great today and I will go Mon-Thursday for morning cardio next week and possibly Friday night cardio. Maybe I will hit victory field a few nights and time my laps. I feel like jogging. I am also pushing back weigh day to the 25th due to injury/sick/being on break and eating Olive Garden and Chinese.

Shout out to Vincent Amoroso for his Gladiator calves. You can carry me anywhere big boy! Shout out to my son for being a great kid and kickin Adventureland's ass. Shout out to Jay Cutler for having awesome merchandise and keeping me motivated. Shout out to Arnold Schwarzenegger for making great movies.

"You have to burn to grow" Arnold Schwarzenegger in Stay Hungry

TTYS,

JJB

Back on the blog

Hi,

So Last time I wrote to you I was hurt. I missed a week at the gym. I went back today for some morning cardio and then again in the afternoon for a hearty chest workout.

In the last week I hurt my back then I was sick and mega busy with my son. Wednesday we saw a nick jr show at Radio City, then went away Thursday and came back Friday and then the weekend was full of Michelle's birthday and Easter.

My diet was less than perfect during the second half of the vacation but today I was back with a clean diet.

I just watched stay hungry with the bodybuilding icon himself Arnold. I am still hungry, still chasing my bodybuilding dreams and maybe along the way will figure some more things out. I am 30 and have a long way to go.

TTYS,

JJB

Going on a trip

The family is all packed up for our CT adventure. We will being staying at a comfort suites for $74 a night. Not bad considering it has a nice indoor pool and free breakfast. We will be visiting the children's museum in West Hartford.

My back is a little better but I will icy hot it for my trip. I am hoping to recover by tonight so I can hit the gym. There is a planet fitness 4 miles away and I might just join for $10 a month to go today and tomorrow and have a traveling gym. Where there's a will, there's a way.

TTYS,

JJB

Lower Back

So today the back was out, So far icy hot has been good but I might miss a day or two this week to heal. No need to compound the pain. Don't lift too much and risk your form. You will pay. I had a beer and 3 cookies tonight. OOPS!

TTYS,

JJB

Sorry again 3/30 update

I'm very sorry about the missed blog. Yesterday I hit the gym at night. It was a hardcore back day. I wanted to title this " On South Beach in my wife beat" because after breaking a nice sweat during warm up I rocked the wife beater in my quest to rock my back. The down side is I kind of hurt my lower back. I came home and put my kid to bed and then showered. After that I watched half of Clash of the Titans (Original one with Micky from Rocky movies).

I had so much more energy yesterday because of going back to oatmeal. I will not do any cardio today unless my back feels stronger. Today the family and I are going to Radio City Music Hall for a show. Both of my favorite muscle magazines came out today so I Will purchase at least one of them. Jay Cutler is writing for Muscular Development now so I will start buying that as well.

Michelle was complaining to her sister about not being invited to a party by a coworker. She has been bitching about that for a week. There is too much petty shit out there. I hate gossip and will try to run from it. People are so easily offended. That is a major thing to work on in life. Do not get offended. Why are we so sensitive? That shit leads to stupid thoughts of revenge and mean spirited shit that take you away from your goals. Take it easy America.

TTYS,

JJB

Day after birthday

Michelle took me to Medieval Times for my birthday and it was great. The chicken was to die for and I was yelling for the black and white night to chop some heads off. I did exercise Sunday through Saturday last week so I felt free to take my birthday off.

Driving back from the show I decided to throw grapes out the car window at pedestrians. It was awesome. That's how you turn 30! I hit a guy in the thigh and a woman in the shoe. The day was mostly good but my son was really cranky that day. Then his mom was cranky and told me off about some bullshit. Yep, I get told off on my birthday.

Today I hit the morning cardio for 30 minutes and then returned for a hardcore chest workout. Shout out to Mike for spotting me and making it happen. I benched 225 6 times and then 245 (my body weight) 2 times and then the last rep with assistance. I have a bunch of xl shirts that i can now wear in my wardrobe. I know next month I will be breaking up with xxl. That fat bitch has got to go. There's no turning back now.

The family and I saw How to Train Your Dragon 3D movie and it was great. Tomorrow we go to pump it up and maybe swimming. Michael and I love to swim, I hope his mother is down. If the weather is nice we can tear up some parks. Shout out to Nassau County Parks Department for keeping those bitches clean. Word to your mothers.

Here is a phone call from Sandra Bullock:

Sandra: Jeremy I really need to see you

Jeremy: The three of us are busy this week Sandra, maybe next week baby

Sandra: Who are the three of us?

Jeremy: Me and my two friends

Sandra: What two friends

Jeremy: Deeeeez nuuuuuuuts!!

Sandra: My favorite! Call me when you're free you hot bodybuilding son of a bitch

So Sandra and I have rescheduled. I hope you all learned something from this.

TTYS,

JJB

Happy Birthday to me

"Lord forgive me for my brash delivery/ but I remember vividly what these streets did to me"

-Jay Z, What more can i say

It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life,liberty, and pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that? - Chris Gardner in The pursuit of Happyness.

You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.- Same as above

I met my father for the first time when I was 28 years old. I made up my mind that when I had children, my children were going to know who their father was.- Same as above. (F.Y.I I met my father for the first time when I was 25. A pathetic little Ecuadorian man living in Sunnyside Queens. I am the middle child, the black sheep, the bastard. Daddy was a mother fucker so I'm a bastard but I won't let him make an asshole out of me. Fuck you Manny.....

Hi everybody,

There was another quote from this movie that I really loved. Chris Gardner was saying that he remembered all the good grades he used to get and how smart he was and all the things he had not become. Well I just turned 30 and I have breathe in my lungs and my heart is strong.

It's so important that I take these lessons learned over the years and apply them to the present and the future. I have done plenty of bad choice making and I have a wealth of knowledge. I'm still standing. That makes me a very dangerous person. The Rocky Balboa of this weight loss. Here is a recap of the past decade. Some of it.

• 2000- Last great year with Mike (Cousin). Along with Phil we were enjoying everything. The memories are too many to say. I might take a Saturday to blog about Mike. Jessica and Maria had our hearts and Waldbaums paid the bills.
• 2001- Lost Mike, the twin towers and flew to Wyoming looking for love.
• 2002- Reunited with Michelle.
• 2003- Michelle is knocked up (January 10th pregnancy test), CDL to drive a school bus
• 2005- Michael is diagnosed with Autism
• 2006- Became a substitute Paraprofessional
• 2007- Michelle runs off with another man for the summer but returns late August.
• 2008- Full time status at the Department of Education
• 2009- Reunited with my friend Mike, It's nice to have him back. He's a good kid with a great bunch of friends and family. Personally nothing happened.
• 2010- So far I am down 4 inches on my waist. The rest is still unwritten.

The decade was tough. I didn't take charge or responsibility and paid the price many times. I am an agent of change and people need my brand of leadership. Right now the battle is my waistline, but there are many battles to be fought. My life is like the Chronicles of Narnia. This is a new chapter.

Shout outs: First of all is my son Michael Jeremy Bucaria. You're presence gives me hope and I will do my best to return the love. Then my Childhood friends Chris and Vinny. Next is Phil who became my side kick after Mike passed. Mike Amoroso for listening to my psycho babble. Martine and Flo for making work easier. Jesse Inserra for keeping me in mind. I will even shout Michelle out for making a perfect little boy for me. Shout out to my mother Roxanne for witnessing all the good, the bad and the fucked up.

Many people have come and gone in my life over the years. I wish I could have been closer to all of them. I know that some things end quicker than you like. Thank you to those that have continued to be a part of my life and evolution. Your continued support sustains me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY JOSEPH BUCARIA! TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!

TTYS,

JJB

Shoulders and arms in suffolk

Today I visited my friend Vinny and went to his gym. It was a planet fitness. The workout was fast and intense and I am super pumped. Vinny and I are really noticing a difference in my muscles.

Today work was decent. Martine wasn't there but I had lunch with Flo. I saw my son for a little bit and that was nice. I am so happy to spend the next 11 days with him. Having a 6 year old child softens the blow of turning 30.

Today when coming home from work I stopped at the store to get the kid some juice. For a snack I bought almonds and prunes. I usually have a hard time controlling how much I eat but I was able to stop. I felt like Edward in Twilight when he had to stop sucking Bella's blood. I have reached appetite control. Yay!

Shout out to Vinny for the great workout. So long to my pants that are too big. Fuck you fat pants. I had sex with your mother lol.

It's coming together nice and slow. I am optimistic and worry free.

TTYS,

JJB

My ass fell asleep

Today my ass fell asleep. It was an odd experience, some would call a phenomenon. It has been a low energy week but my legs workout was fine. Mike cancelled on me so I went to wall climbing alone.

Wall climbing was hard and embarrassing and I have to lose 50 pounds to go back. I was the fattest guy in the building. I am not lying. I know I weighed the most. After that humiliating hour I went to the batting cage and kicked some ass. I kicked ass in the 35 mph cage. Please don't laugh, it has been a long time.

At lunch today I ate alone. Martine had an errand to run and Flo was waiting for her Popeye's chicken. They had lunch with Steve without me and I didn't mind. I am tired of being offended and upset about bullshit. I wasn't even mad when Mike cancelled. I have lunch with these people everyday and on their whim I had to eat alone. That's pretty much life. I am gearing up for a more physically challenging life with exercise and active sports. With sports you can try and fail and keep going with no ridicule or judgement. You can also get real results from trying your best and being consistent. Shout out to Emma G for telling me about Brooklyn Boulders rock climbing.

I really look forward to seeing my son tomorrow. Then after some horse play it is off to the gym with Vinny. The 11 day spring break will be filled with plenty of exercise and outings. I will post twice on my Birthday so check me out in the afternoon and evening.

TTYS,

JJB

Sorry!

I didn't blog last night so today you get two!

I went to dinner with my mother and aunt, as a happy 30th birthday meal. We went to Empire buffet where I ate a variety of chicken. I didn't have any rice or pasta or even fried wings. I sipped my mothers coke and it was mega sweet. I don't miss soda at all.

At night I went to Bikram Yoga and sweat my fat ass in to oblivion. I don't know why I torture myself like this but I was craving the physical challenge. Wrapping your mind around your physical state is so much better than being caught up in bullshit and my often controversial and morbid environment.

Michael was sick, Michelle was flipping out, I had a ton of suspensions to take of at work and Martine was still mad at me for yelling at her. I asked the school therapist if I could talk to her sometime about things because she is a good listener and she turned me down. It was kind of awkward and lame. She gave me this bureaucratic answer. Today I am relieved that she did because I felt no warmth. Some people in life you can't get close to, sometimes just saying good morning is all you will get. I try to to share as much as I can with as many that I can. That's just me. Her loss, I am awesome and deep and could have been a valuable ally.

Today Mike and I are going to do something fun. Either rock climbing or batting cage. I want to do more sports for fun and less eating out. You have to eat but I don't want food to rule my birthday. I used to enjoy gluttony and now I have no use for that bitch! After work is legs day at the gym. I am going light with more repetitions. Word up!

TTYS,

JJB

Damn it all

I had a shitty day. I argued with a friend and then after my UFT meeting I had to wait an hour for the train. I only did 9 sets for back because the gym was mega crowded at night.

On the bright side I went to Friday's for an early dinner and had the Dragonfire Chicken. At 470 calories it was the only choice and it was awesome. Even the brown rice was yummy. God bless the calorie count on the menu.

Tomorrow is 8:30 yoga. Shout out to Mrs. A for being great company at the UFT meeting and the ride home. Shout out to my little boy who is home sick. Daddy misses you and I love you. Get better before the vacation you little monster.

TTYS,

JJB

Shut down

So yesterday I paid my introductory fee for 10 consecutive days of hot yoga and did my first class. I raced there today and couldn't get in for being 5 minutes late. It turns out the usual 8:30 class is at 8:15. You win some and lose some. I should have been better prepared and it is my fault. It took me 15 minutes to come to this conclusion and a few curse words entered my mind.

I had a bomb ass chest workout out. Up to 225 bench press (6 times) on the free weight bench and my chest was looking great. After being yoga rejected I hit the gym for an additional cardio session and torched 375 more calories.

No weight update until April 18th. That is the end of the next 4 week cycle and I don't want to feel any emotion towards the numbers. Just hard work and due diligence. Monday is great and tomorrow is torch my back day!

TTYS,

JJB

Zero week

247.4

Same as last week. All I can do is hope muscle replaced fat. I'm not sad. If this happens again next week then I will be alarmed but I am ok.

The last month has brought me 8 pounds of weight loss. In order to stay motivated I will be switching to a 4 day split of Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday at the gym. I will be adding biceps to chest and triceps to back. On Wednesday I will be going to Bikram yoga on Woodhaven Blvd. On Sunday I will do some kind of cardio.

My new Saturday night will include either batting cage or gold ball driving range. I hate being home for long and it's a productive way to spend my time. I was bored yesterday so I ate 2 snack wraps from McDonalds. I thought it would lead to a binge but it didn't. I went to CVS to get a sponge on a stick to scrub my back and wasn't interested in any more snacks.

That's it for today. Stay fighting hard. Free your mind and your ass will follow!

TTYS,

JJB

The perfect month

I worked hard the past 4 weeks. I was 20 for 20. Better than the Lakers, better than the Cavaliers and better than the Yankees. I have 5 months to go on my membership. I am going the distance. I will be proud to say that I used my membership to the fullest.

My arms workout today was kind of flat. I think the new weather got to me and my focus was a little off. I had to get my haircut to keep up with my new hair-do. Everything great in life requires maintenance. Your body, looks, money, relationships, car, etc..

My principal had many muffins and cookies for the parents today at open school, along with soda and juicy boxes. I felt bad that I couldn't have a white chocolate macadamia nut cookie. I know you might think I am too strict but I look down at my gut and I am reminded of all the times I didn't pass on the treat. I am ashamed of this gut. It took a long time to build and maintain and will take a long time to destroy. All I can do is fight. I am the Rocky Balboa of weight loss and I am all heart.

I promise you and myself that I will show you the way. I will bring you hope and inspiration. The boyhood dream will come true. I will prove to you that anything is possible and it's not about the times you have failed but the times you had the courage to dust yourself off and get back in the fight. Consistence and persistence are your only allies. Tell yourself that you are worth it and then get to work.

TTYS,

JJB

Who took a dookie in the urinal?

Hello folks,

Had a great workout today. I am preparing for tomorrow's 20 for 20. I hope the scale gods are kind to me this Sunday. Shout out to Martine for making sure I didn't mess up while at Buffalo Wild Wings. I ate the grilled chicken. I love the gym and nothing beats walking home in the fresh air. Spring is going to be beautiful.

TTYS,

JJB

I'm a beast!!!

Today was a great day. I had a power nap before I went to the gym and killed my legs. I did my warm up cardio and I owned that mutha effer. I can't believe I actually went a little further today than yesterday.

Highlights of the workout

• 550 pounds leg press 6 times
• 185 pounds squat 6 times (I am very protective of any exercise that my back plays a major roll, especially the lower back)

It felt great and my back is tight from yesterday. When I was done with my warm up cardio I raised my fist in victory. I did that a few times today. I felt like a winner. I'm now going to watch Rocky on Netflix.

TTYS,

JJB

A workout the gods would envy

JJB- Whats the problem officer?

Lady Cop- You are driving around with 2 loaded guns!

JJB- Nah Baby, thems my arms yo

Lady Cop- Damn you fine ass bodybuilder, where you taking those canons?

JJB- To the gun show bitch, get in ho!

Lady Cop- Hell yeah baby, let's use my siren!

LOL! So I went to open school for Michael tonight and of course Ms. Amanda had nothing but praise for my little boy. He was running around like his daddy, in nothing but undies. My workout was delayed until later.

I hit the warm up cardio like a beast! I went 1.75 miles in 15 minutes and 193 calories. I then worked my back into oblivion. Mike joined me on my journey to greatness. We rowed 245 pounds. I couldn't and wouldn't be stopped. It felt so good. We punished every single back fiber and then hit the cardio for another 214 calories. I was wearing my Jay Cutler Mr.O shirt and was feeling the pump. Shout out to Mike for helping with the workout and shout out to my sponsors,

KY Jelly, Quaker Oats and all your mothers! LOL!

TTYS,

JJB

Sick day but productive

Today I took a sick day from work. Michael spread the love and the germ and daddy needed the day to recover. I slept until 11 today which was awesome.

While at home I was able to throw away papers and handle some put off business. I paid a $50 parking ticket (Courtesy of Michelle), bought some life insurance and sent an RSVP for the next Paraprofessionals meeting. Blockbuster video is back on the late fee bullshit so I am back to Netflix. I will be sending the movies to Michelle's house because the people that go to the bar downstairs like to take my mail. I went to the dentist but walked out because 45 minutes waiting is too much. Respect my appointment. Plus every single person had to schedule a root canal. I don't trust this guy. In September I will find a new dentist. I picked up my new glasses and bought my skin care products from CVS. I will start my skin care regimen on Wednesday.

I still got in my chest work out today and my bench is back over 200 pounds. My energy was through the roof. I killed my warm up and the dripping sweat was the proof. I love the intensity I brought today. Shout out to my brother in law Ronnie House for giving me the big ass box of oatmeal. It shall help build me good muscles son!

Twelve sets of chest today and tomorrow is back day. I am ready to bring it!

Let's stay positive and focused on our goals!

TTYS,

JJB

The results are in...

Hi everybody,

Sunday is official weigh day. After 5 hard work out days and very clean eating and 2 full rest days I come to you with my results. Drum roll please lol....

My weight is 247.4

This is a loss of 2.4 pounds.

This week I didn't have a cheat meal. I snacked on some of Michael's fries this weekend when we went out, but I still ordered steak and baked potato. I kept it clean. I am just too motivated to cheat, and I haven't had a craving yet. I usually want a cheat when I can't have it, but I am so strong these days.

This Monday will start week 4 of my most recent gym membership. I have faithfully executed 20 workouts in 4 weeks. That's 4 perfect weeks and great results. Next Sunday is picture day and I will post monthly photos.

This week has a dental visit and a possible back waxing but I will not be stopped from going 20 for 20. I feel like a winner.

My advice is to admire your body, flex for yourself and celebrate the little things. Bodybuilding is my passion. It makes me a better person. It makes me a committed person.

TTYS,

JJB

TGIF

Hi friends,

Today's arms workout was nuclear. I have the right to bare arms and bear arms! I got my new Jay Cutler shirt in the mail and it fits great. I went to the diner with my family for dinner and had brisket of beef with half a baked potato. I didn't finish the plate so that will be tomorrow's lunch.

As you may know, tomorrow is Saturday and my workout day off. I will also not blog on Saturday. I will return Sunday after my day of rest with my brand new weight. I am hoping for 247.8. I would like 2 pounds of fat to drop per week.

This means 15 full weeks until 4th of July

23 full weeks until the new school term

32 weeks until Halloween (I want to be the incredible hulk or a chip & dale dancer lol)

39 weeks until Christmas

40 weeks until New years 2011

Imagine where I can be when the ball drops. Shining my 6 pack? Flexing my biceps? Going off in the metal detector because of my buns of steel?

I was at work today and Mr. Grant, a 51 year old school aide, showed me his shredded abs. I was ashamed but encouraged. This man is ripped to shreds and can put most people to shame. He also wears cool Rasta hats. Shout out to Mr. Grant and Steve for being so cool and encouraging during my transformation period.

TTYS,

JJB

Doing very well.

So after yesterday's tooth extraction I am recovering well. My diet today was mostly protein shakes due to the 24 hour liquid diet for proper healing.

I wanted to talk about skin care today. I will be buying face scrub and body scrub this weekend. I will be ex foliating my skin twice a week. I want to eventually age gracefully and know I can do better than just soap and water. I have been moisturizing for a few weeks as well. Nobody wants to look like Walter Mathaw. There is a world of skin care out there that even men should not ignore.

I had a great shoulder workout today. The warm up cardio was really intense. What really feels good to me is wearing my xxl shirts and having them fall on me, instead of me filling them out. Clothes should lay on your body, not look like the material is screaming for it's life. Sexy women can get away with that, fat dudes nope!

If Julie Powell reads this, I hope she can teach me how to cook a steak as good as Ruby Tuesday someday.

TTYS,

JJB

Some off day this was...

Nobody said the truth was easy. I went to my eye doctor and my eyes were decent. It was only 2 years since my last check-up. Today I went to the dentist. Ladies and gentleman, I had my first tooth pulled and the second will be Monday. I will be going to the dentist every 6 months and you can bet I am never smoking ever again. A combination of healthy teeth and better blood pressure let me know that I can be healthy.

I had to take today off so I can make the next two days be a part of the 5 day week. I then take Saturday and Sunday off to make next Monday through Friday a regular week. I have to hit the gym before the dentist so I can get my workout in. No dentist or missing wisdom tooth is going to rob me of a workout!

I received a few compliments today from people who noticed my new haircut and my weight loss. That was so encouraging! The best is yet to come. I am staying positive through this pain and will be speaking more about skin care tomorrow. A coworker today said she likes my glasses, another coworker complimented my haircut. Awesome!

TTYS,

JJB

You can have whateva you like...yeah!!!!!!!!!

Today was great. The weather was 60 degrees and my meals were great. I took a nice healthy nap before hitting the eye doctor and hooked myself up with new glasses, thanks to the 50% discount from the UFT! I then did a nice legs workout and broke a nice sweat. Shout out to Richie's gym in Ozone Park NY.

So the goal to lose weight is usually seen as mainly an aesthetic goal. I do want to look better than ever but my health is also important. My blood pressure today was 122 over 72. Those are awesome numbers. Exercise and clean eating are responsible for this. I want to maintain my muscle so I am eating carbs. No more lose weight quick schemes. Oatmeal and brown rice and yams are your friends and will improve your health.

I'm telling you guys, this is making me really take care. I am working out, saw my eye doctor and tomorrow is the dentist. In September I will get a yearly check up. There is so much I can fix because 30 is still young in the grand scheme of life. 30 is still sexy and I feel sexy. I'm bringing sexy back. Next Wednesday I'm getting my back waxed. Please say a prayer for me!

I can't get taller and I might not regrow my lost hair, oh my beautiful curly hair, but I can appreciate what I have and make the best of it. My advice is to try to be the best you that you can be, define your own goals and set limitless boundaries. You are your only competition.

TTYS,

JJB

Routine

I promised I would chart my routine, so here it is! This week is a little askew, but this is my normal routine. I was going to start my workout week on Sunday but it took time away from Michael (my son) and his mom (Michelle) wants to do a Sunday date night. She dropped me off at the gym and Michael was sad and we can't have that. Monday through Friday and two days rest will be my mission.

• Monday- Chest
• Tuesday- Back
• Wednesday- Legs
• Thursday- Shoulders
• Friday- Arms

I will be doing 12-16 sets for larger body parts and 9 sets for biceps and triceps.

TTYS,

JJB

Working Hard

Sunday was a big chest workout. I did 16 sets and boy did I feel it today. I ate every 2.5-3 hours and had great energy up until now. I worked my back today. I begin all workouts with 20 minutes warm-up cardio and end them with 30 minutes cardio. I then walk home. My gym bag weighed a ton today carrying all that food.

I want to explain JDBF. Just Don't Be Fat was invented to figure out what women were thinking. It's a theory of mine and my friend Vinny that women don't care for large men and would rather go for skinny dudes or even a less attractive man as long as he wasn't fat. I watched an episode of 20/20 where elementary school kids said they would rather be ugly than fat. For every time I was called fat or anybody else, it is a real ordeal to put up with.

Why is it easy to be fat? Do you know how much cooking and dishes I do! The prep work is a bitch, but I do have my eyes on the prize. For me it isn't a girl, or even a brand new wardrobe. It is partly to show my son something better, to be a role model for him, but also about inspiration. I want to inspire people.

Maybe I can change the way I feel about me, and then maybe the way you feel about me, and then maybe I can change the way you feel about you. If I can change my body that has been less than stellar for 30 years, maybe you can make the changes you seek to make.

TTYS,

JJB

Day One 249.8lbs

Maybe it's a half ass title. I been battling my weight since birth. I am convinced that this effort will be the winning one. I want to share the journey with you.

I turn 30 on March 28th. No panic and/or depression. I have a kid that will be 7 in September. I have some real world experience.

My diet will be as follows:

Breakfast: 50g whey Protein, one serving oatmeal, one banana. Supplements include L-Carnitine, Multi-Vitamin, CLA, and Horny Goat weed (as if I'm not horny enough lol)

Snack 1: one serving oatmeal and one serving walnuts

Lunch: 50g meat protein, 2 servings brown rice, vegetable

Pre-workout: one scoop casein protein, L-Carnitine

Post-workout: 2 scoops whey protein and large Gatorade (or soda)

Dinner: 50g meat protein, 6 oz Sweet potato

Bedtime: One scoop Casein protein (90 mins before bed) ZMA (30 minutes before bed) melatonin (30 minutes before bed)

Next blog I will detail my workout routine. It is a 5 day split that is high in volume.

I hope somebody reads this, I can use all the encouragement that I can get. Congrats to Kai Green for winning the 2010 Arnold classic! Let's Rock and Roll! I'm going in!!