I had a great workout yesterday and today. I am using the FST-7 training system and it is hardcore. I haven't lifted that hard in a while. I will take tomorrow off and see Michael.
Why do women say, are you done? Like what your saying doesn't make sense. I am done if you understand. That is when I am done. I have bent over backwards for this woman and she still to this day pushes my buttons and there is no rescue ship. I feel stranded on an island by myself with my son that has communication problems, Michelle is the shark and there is no rescue ship coming for us. I am trying to get by but it's hard. It's my fault I am on this island and I am fighting to get off of it and start a better life but it is hard. God give me the strength to get through and please send me an angel. I need a wife. I need a partner. I used to take refuge in Martine when times got rough, that's why I loved her so much because I felt protected. I am so exposed now. As scared as I am, I will fight. I will fight for every hope and dream that has ever meant anything to me and for I will fight for my child. I love my child.
I had a dream one time where Michael and I were with God and God had a bag of letters for Michael. He asked Michael what letter he wanted and Michael said "B for Bucaria". God told me Michael will always be my son, not just in this life. God then put Michael and I on an elevator and sent us home. I love my son and I thank God for him.
TTYS,
JJB
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