Sorry!

I didn't blog last night so today you get two!

I went to dinner with my mother and aunt, as a happy 30th birthday meal. We went to Empire buffet where I ate a variety of chicken. I didn't have any rice or pasta or even fried wings. I sipped my mothers coke and it was mega sweet. I don't miss soda at all.

At night I went to Bikram Yoga and sweat my fat ass in to oblivion. I don't know why I torture myself like this but I was craving the physical challenge. Wrapping your mind around your physical state is so much better than being caught up in bullshit and my often controversial and morbid environment.

Michael was sick, Michelle was flipping out, I had a ton of suspensions to take of at work and Martine was still mad at me for yelling at her. I asked the school therapist if I could talk to her sometime about things because she is a good listener and she turned me down. It was kind of awkward and lame. She gave me this bureaucratic answer. Today I am relieved that she did because I felt no warmth. Some people in life you can't get close to, sometimes just saying good morning is all you will get. I try to to share as much as I can with as many that I can. That's just me. Her loss, I am awesome and deep and could have been a valuable ally.

Today Mike and I are going to do something fun. Either rock climbing or batting cage. I want to do more sports for fun and less eating out. You have to eat but I don't want food to rule my birthday. I used to enjoy gluttony and now I have no use for that bitch! After work is legs day at the gym. I am going light with more repetitions. Word up!

TTYS,

JJB